Lonely...

I never knew what loneliness is until I met her. That is after she ignored me for another guy. I felt really useless. Don't think i can take it anymore. The feeling is unbearable for me. When she had a fight with her guy, she would come to me. And when they are back together again, I'm ignored.

Tears are forming in my eyes as I blogged this and a lump is forming in my throat. :(

Why God??? WHY???

I wish I don't have to feel this way. It is really unbearable. I ask God to take my life away so that I don't have to feel like this. Somehow I'm still here.

What did I do to deserve this? Please help me...

Heartbreak!

Never knew that love could hurt so much. I really wish that I'm not hurt but I am. Wish I could be happy for them but... Seeing both of them together.... It just shatters my heart. I don't know how else to express it. All I can do is cry. I know man shouldn't cry but I just can't help it. The tears just form in the eyes. And my breathing, I had forgotten how it was to cry.

I don't know what should I do. Am I bad? For wanting them to break up? GOD!!! Please help me.... Tell me what should I do?
Tell me!!!!!
Tell me...
Tell me..
Tell me.

Don't want to be hurt anymore...