Aaargh.....

Was looking through my past blog when I just realize that I forgot to remove her name. Now I really cant tell anyone about this blog. Guess I must have been too sick that day to notice. Sick for one week already. Feeling better now so I can continue blogging.

I still miss her!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................
All I can do i just shout in the vastness of cyberspace.

I have nobody to talk too... Not my family, not my friends. Nobody knows how I feel.
Sounds really pathetic. And I hate myself for that.

Dont know why I love her. Maybe its because she loves me first. I dont even know if she loved me. All I know is I believe her when she
told me that. I was afraid to love her. I hesitated when she ask me if I loved her. Never had the confidence to tell anyone my feelings before. And she got it out of me. And when I told her that I love her, she told me she loves another.:(

I still cant believe it. Why do I still love her? It has been more than a month now. I still think of her every hour. I see her faces everywhere. Everything reminded me of her. Sometimes I just wish that I can forget her. I still care for her.

When she was sick, I can't be there for her. All I can do is prayed that I shared her sickness. And when she asked why I was always sick, I can't tell her the reason is that I prayed to lighten her burden. So I don't mind to be sick. I wish so hard that she'll love me.... But I could't tell her that.

Reminds me of a song by Take That:

All I do each night is pray,
Hoping that I'll be a part of you again someday.
All I do each night is think
Of the times I closed the door to keep my love within.

It is what have been doing........