Heaven Knows

My dearest...

I've been pretending to be happy for the past few months. It may seem short but it feels like forever to me. You may see me as being happy but inside I was feeling miserable ever since you told me that you love someone else. I became sick. Maybe you noticed that. I was stupid dear. I tried hard to forget you but I couldn’t. Try as I may, I still think of you all the time.

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know.
And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go…

The song keeps playing on my mind. But I have come to realize that I don’t deserve you. Should have look in the mirror before I love you. Now all I can do is just watch you from afar, hoping that you won’t notice me. I’ll just love you the only way I can, without you knowing it.